God bless my gyno, she immediately got me a referral to another surgeon, and this surgeon also happens to be greatly recommended by my stepmom, I guess this gal is the one who did her hysterectomy ten years ago and did a great job. I should be able to schedule the surgery on Monday!

My sister broke my heart yesterday, (she IS quitting smoking) she told me to stop pretending to have cancer because it's insulting to real cancer patients and to everyone who loved our sister and our nephew. She said it's not really cancer because 'it's just a removable cyst or something" and I need to shut up because it's upsetting people.

In our family, i have ONLY told women who are genetically related to me, because they need to get checked. I haven't told my brother (father of nephew who died from cancer) or my late sister's widower, or my adopted sister, the only person i've told who doesn't PHYSICALLY need to know is my dad, because i tell him everything, we're really close. I asked my sister who I was upsetting and she wouldn't answer and told me I don't have cancer unless I'm on chemo and radiation. I told her i'm in the process of scheduling the surgery to have part of my body removed because it is malignant. then she said that I had specifically told her it was benign . . . GRRRRRRRRRRRR

she's quitting smoking. She's quitting smoking. She's quitting smoking. I should NOT kill her. I should NOT kill her. She is temporarily insane. She is temporarily insane.

I am so freaking insulted. She told me to shut up because me being sick may upset the people who loved Chris. Well, SHE met Chris twice in his life, bought him lunch once fifteen years ago. I was in his hospital room 30 hours a week for a year, I taught him to ride, i taught him to tie his shoes, I was the one who got him eating again and got him off the feeding tube, and i was in the room holding his sister when they unplugged him and let him go. I named my daughter after him. (Bailey Christine).

She's quitting smoking. She's quitting smoking. she's quitting smoking. I KNOW what it's like . . . I can remember . . .

but ARRRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHH I wanna take her outside for this.

Thanks for listening! lol. grr.



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