I think wolverine has just about covered all the bases My family called me lazy and talked about me behind my back in a negative way for years. A psychiatrist told me it was all in my mind/ attitude to life/`free floating anger` ( you bet I had free floating anger!) and put me on anti depressants.
Unfortunately the antidepressents he perscribed were the ones which encourage you to take action, so I did take action, and over a period of 3 years I burnt myself with a ciggie all the way up my left arm and cut myself as well. Now I am pretty severely scarred for life.
looking back now, it seems such a grotesque and stupid thing to do, but at the time it made me feel better, I don`t know how it works, but it does. (don`t try this at home, folks)
I have recently moved house and this was a deliberate effort on my part to get away from my family, preferably for ever. Of course, once I was diagnosed officially with AS they were all so very helpful- couldn`t be more helpful, but where were they before? I don`t think I can ever forgive them now. They don`t know this of course.
One thing that really effs me off as well are the explanitory leaflets on AS- you know the ones `AS is uncommen in women, and usually les painful`
Well whoopie do- that`s going to make the docs beleive you, isn`t it?
Thank God for my partner who has stuck by me all the way, and thank that same God (or whatever it is) for the kids.
I dont think I will ever trust people 100 per cent again- but I`ve found my own safe harbour finally.
Sorry to waffle on folks.
take care.
Kaz x
