Heather please don't be scared. There are a lot of people here who will listen and a lot of people who care. Don't worry about writing mile long whiny letters. How else are we going to know what is going on? I have also been down the depression road and it was a hard climb back up but it is possible. Hang on to your dear sweet husband whenever you need to. I'm sure he wishes he could make it all go away for you. My husband is happy when I lay down with my head in his lap or ask him to massage my shoulders because he feels that he is do something to ease my pain. And he appreciates it when I whine to him because he knows it makes me feel better, at least emotionally. I wish I could climb through the screen and hug you in person but I can't, so this will just have to do (((((((((Heather))))))))))). We will ALL get through this together.

Sending hugs and smiles your way today. Good luck with the doc and let us know what happens. :-)
Christina